💌 #7 Preparing for January

For a long time, I didn't give January much thought. It was a season for fresh starts, new plans, and established habits. However, things seem different this year. This is truly unique. Anxieties and anticipation fill me up every time I check the calendar. Now January is more than just another page; it is the month I have been eagerly anticipating, the month when we will finally meet.

The fact that the day is drawing near can feel surreal at times. It has been on our minds, in planning, for months. Everything is starting to feel more real now that we're only a few weeks away. The instant we meet, the first smile, and the subsequent stillness because words fail me are all vividly shown in my imagination. This is a situation that I have replayed in my head countless times.

More and more, we've been discussing what we want to do that day. The little things, like planning our itinerary and anticipating our first face-to-face meeting. My heart skips a beat for every tiny detail. I couldn't help but smile when he admitted that he is also anxious. It becomes even more meaningful when I know he feels the same way. Our potential inability to respond is something we playfully discuss from time to time. Still, I know in my heart that our very presence, words be damned, will make a world of difference.

I, too, experience moments of mild fear. It is thrilling and emotional to finally meet in person after months of virtual communications. Will everything still feel the same? Could it be that the sight of him makes me cry? What if I remain motionless, speechless? Although fleeting, some ideas never really die out. Just with our chats and laughing, I truly believe that everything will feel natural. Even though it will be our first face-to-face meeting, it will seem more familiar than a long-awaited reunion.

With the arrival of January, my mind races with ideas for the perfect attire, the perfect words, and the perfect way to make that special day one to remember. This day is very important to me, so I want to make sure I look my best—not for the sake of vanity. I hope he can feel the immense gratitude I feel for all that we have experienced together. Every single message, call, every moment of patience has culminated in this one day, and I want him to know that.

I find that I smile uncontrollably at times, particularly when we discuss our future goals. Feels like you're on the edge of your seat, hoping for the best. My pulse races a bit quicker every time someone mentions January. Mildly, I notice each passing day as we draw nearer to the end of the distance, and I count them one by one.

Our relationship has been founded on trust and reliability, and I think that is what makes it so special. We were separated in space, but our bond of mutual understanding and trust was stronger than anything distance could have brought. Making plans for January goes beyond simply deciding what to do and where to go. Making myself emotionally ready for an experience I will never forget is at the heart of it.

No matter what, meeting you will be one of the best things in my life, he told me once. Such words occupy my thoughts frequently. Love doesn't have to be flawless, and they make me remember that. It must be forthright. Truthful, patient, and hopeful has always been ours.

My greatest emotion right now, while I await January, is gratitude. Thanks for the challenges we faced apart, the times we stayed in touch, and the promise that is soon to come true. Calls and messages will soon be replaced by genuine joy and precious moments. It will have been well worth the wait when I can look at him on that special day.

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